I remember it so clearly, it was September of 2019, I went for a weekend away called Kingdom Culture. I was so excited as I knew it was just going to be 2 straight days with Jesus. A time to reflect , worship and relax in Gods presence. Prior to that weekend I had been feeling so anxious about work and a number of other things and my whole prayer and bible study time was always focused on scriptures that could help me overcome this tension and anxiousness that I was constantly feeling.
Going for the weekend away was one of the best decisions I made in 2019, I remember walking through the forest ( which was sooo gorgeous btw) and I clearly heard God say, “stop focusing on yourself and start to focus on me” he went on to say instead of constantly thinking about anxiety and studying how to get over it, focus on who I am and my characteristics. I was really intrigued so began to listen further. He went on to say “I want you to begin on focusing on MY LOVE ” So that’s what I did, after the weekend away I went back home and googled scriptures about Gods love. This was my fave link.
I remember one particular evening when I encountered Gods love. I believe it was the scripture …
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
As I began to meditate on these words , the Holy Spirit took over my mind and where as before my anxious mind kept on picturing things going wrong, God completely took over my imagination and now I could hear God saying the most incredible , encouraging and uplifting words over again and again. He said I love you Alice, you mean the world to me, I am so proud of you, your future is amazing, I’m routing for you everyday, I love you passionately, you are so special , my precious daughter. For about 5 minutes straight my mind became full of a constant flow of the most beautiful words I’ve ever heard. I knew what the disciple meant when he said I am a prisoner of your love . His love was absolutely overwhelming, I felt trapped in an incredible array of amazing emotions which all embodied his love. It was so deep and so rich, I was so lost in it.
I knew at that moment that I had experienced Gods love, I began to understand that truly GOD IS LOVE.
Here are 4 things this revelation does:
1. You have a deep KNOWING that God is literally speaking words of life over you , prayers and declarations constantly!! He is always speaking and singing beautiful words over you and this is what I tapped into and heard.
2. It drives out fear and anxiety , every time I mediate on this revelation the spirit of fear lifts off of me as I dwell in the stunning words of my saviour
3. It makes you deeply in love with Jesus, prior to this experience I was close to God, but the growth after it has been remarkable. I feel such a bond to Jesus in a very real and freeing way.
4. You feel more confident about stepping out on inner desires and dreams. After this experience I began jumping into my “fears” and facing life with boldness because I really knew for the first time that God really did love me
Whether you are facing anxiety or any other negative emotion , I encourage you to lay it to the side and focus on Gods love. I promise you the Lord will show up and take over your anxious thoughts and flood it with his amazing love !
Let me know if you have ever experienced anything like this !!